Sunday, January 27, 2008

Yes last week was a long week. Too much going on! The death of a really good friend. Daddy is still not feeling well at all after the hospital stay and I had a toothache to boot. I was back and forth to the dentist and finally Friday the tooth was removed. The right side of my jaw and cheek swelled up and resembled a baseball. The jaw is still swelled and hurting. I pray that next week is so much better. I still have not heard anything from the job interviews that I went on. So, I'm hoping that I will get a phone call from them this week. I hope that everyone has a good week. Take care and you all will be in my thoughts.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

RIP Biscuit (KC)

Biscuit,
There will be many many things that I will remember about you ...
I will remember:
the smile on your face when you found out that you were going to be a Daddy.
the biggest smile on your face when you found out that your child is a boy.
the day that your little boy was born and how you glowed when you were telling about your new baby son.
the smile on your face as your were walking down A building towards me.
your laughter, and you laughed for no reason..(which is good).
you being silly..doing a half walk and half dance in the hallway.
you telling everyone when something was not right in their life or when they were sad..IT IS GOING TO BE OKAY. Hold your head up!! I"m right here if you need me..
I will never forget your beautiful face or wonderful smile. Biscuit you are georgeous!! You are a friend to everyone that knew you. You are missed...
Rest in peace my friend..and know that I love you and I will miss you!!

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Skittles and dryer sheet

Yes, Stef has a twin in the town that I live in. She is about 5 years and just as beautiful as Stef is. When I seen her again yesterday. I was in town at the laundry service getting a comforter washed and dryed. The little girl was playing around me. She walked past me and ask,"Do you have any moneys?' And I told her "yes." She ask me, "can I have some?" And I told her "yes". So I walked over to the vending machine and dropped a some money in the machine and she told me that she wanted "Skittles". So I pressed the numbers for that selection. She got her candy and looked at me, smiled and said, "thank you." She walked over to the table where her mother was sitting and her mom looked back at me and said, "thank you so much." I could tell that the mother was sad. I figured if the mother wanted to talk that she would. In a few minutes the mother walked over to me and told me that she didn't have the money to buy her little girl a snack before they come to do the laundry. The little girl come running over to where I was at and ask me if she could sit on the folding table where I was and I helped up. It is amazing what makes some children happy..a 70 cent bag of Skittles and playing with a dryer sheet. Life is good!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Great news, and not so great news

I went to my job interview today and I felt that I done very well and then earlier this afternoon I recieved a phone call to go back to another tomorrow. YAY!!! So I am praying this is good news. Okay now to the not so good news, Daddy was put in the hospital Monday afternoon and then late yersterday afternoon he was moved to ICU because he stopped breathing. So, he will be in there until Saturday. The doctor called me around 7pm at Mama's and was telling information that I really didn't want to hear but I needed to know. Yea, Daddy is not in good health. This is a man that weighs 90 pounds (he has never weighed over 100), but eats whatever he wants...but I wanted to keep everyone afloat on what is going on. I will post more tomorrow on what is going on with both. Keep us in your prayers...thanks....

Monday, January 14, 2008

Secrets

I knew my heart things were not right
I felt it in my bones that somethings were just not right
And then I find out tonight...I was right..
There is nothing that I can say
There is nothing that I can do
To make this any better
If only I had known sooner...
But then again....there is nothing that I could do....
I guess I will live with the pain and sorrow of this secret
Maybe not knowing might would have been better ...
But then I would have spent the rest of my adult life trying to figure this out
I will be okay ...
I am a survivor...
But we are all survivors..
I believe that we adapt, no matter what the situation is ...
And goes on.....

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Home Today

Mama get to come home this afternoon. It was after dark when we left the hospital and she was confused because the nurses did not order her a tray to eat befored she left. We stopped at the Kentucky Fried Chicken to get her some dinner and she wanted an apple pie. So with chicken and apple pie in the truck, off we headed, home. It is nice to be home, sitting on my loveseat and watching the Discovery Channel. She come home the cath to her kidneys so that she will not have to get up and down all night to use the "potty chair". She has to take 2 different prescriptions to keep the fluid off on her lungs. She is happy to be home and I happy that she is home. Please keep us both in your prayers. I had a voice message on my cellphone and I have a job interview Wednesday morning as a probation officer and I pray that goes interview goes great and that I'm offered a job. I'm ready to get back to work. I have some really good care that is coming in with Mama so I feel comfortable about going back to work. I hope that everything goes well for all of us. Lord knows that I need it...

Friday, January 11, 2008

A long week...

Mama is in the hospital again. She has fluid on her lungs and something is going on with her heart..She has been in the hospital since Wednesday and she is not a happy person.. she is ready to come home but knows that she has to be in the hospital until she is better. She has not been eating well but she is slowly eating better. So hopefully she will be home in a few more days. I hope that everyone has a good weekend.....

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

The First day of the New Year...

An old wives tale states that whatever you were doing at midnight determines your year. That means that I will be a caregiver all year and that I can deal with. I took care of my nephew last night. His first New Year's Eve that he was legal to drink but I told him that if he was going to drink then he would not be driving, so give me the keys. We were at a friend of mines. Well the wife is my friend and the her hubby works with my older nephew, so we were at the same party. But, I guess that is where it was meant for me to be at. I did have a good time. I sit, laughed and had a good time just talking with friends. I had not seen these friends in months. So, it was really good to have some stimulating adult conversations...and to see good friends for a few hours. I believe 2008 is going to kind to me...I have faith that it is going to be good anyway.