I just don"t understand

I just don't understand...I want to scream, run, cry...I don't think that there is an emotion that I can use at this moment. I miss my Daddy so much! I miss hearing his voice. I miss hearing his laughter, seeing his smile. I miss pulling up in the yard and seeing him sitting on the porch steps with Ms. Hattie. I miss sitting on the porch steps with him. I miss calling him at home and just talking about nothing with him. God above can only know my pain.