it has been awhile

I was lying in bed tonight and decided that I would come on here and see what was going on. I has been 7 months since Daddy has passed away and my world is still shattered. I miss him so much. There are days that it is so hard to breathe. There are days that I would rather pull the comforter over my head and just stay in bed all day with a box of Kleenex. But I know that will not help nothing so I get up and go to work. And I wish that I could say that keeps my mind occupied but it doesn't. I cry alot these days. I have learned that I am alone in this world my hubby, kids and grandkids, a handful of friends. And that will do for me. I would rather have a few then have a pile that is just alone for the ride. And I have learned that the last 45 years of my life has been, I don't want to call it joke, maybe they looked at me as the joke. I really don't know. I do know that I feel alone in this world and that is not a good feeling....peace, love and happiness!!!!!!