Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Daily Grind

Okay, let me apologize for taking so long to post. This has been a month that has been unreal.

Momma seems to be worse by the day. She calls my cellphone and will leave so many mesages while I'm at work. She has my work number but will call me at work. I guess that when she worked that it was a "no-no" to call someone on the job unless it was an emergency. She tells me that she does not want to bother me at work. And I reassure her that she can call me. Daddy is not doing great with his COPD. But he has a sharp mind and that is a blessing.

Work is work. It has it changelles but everything is going well.

We still have not heard from the grandbabies since January 20 and I try not to dwell on it too much but we miss them so much. I have no idea how they are doing but I trust that God is taking care of them and keeping them out of harms way. One day, and hopefully soon, we will see them. Life has a way of kicking you in the gut and keeping you down when it happens. It is hard not to think of them, especially Noah, when it is quiet at home. I can hear him say, "bye, c ya, later". I can hear him call Lulu but he called her "Chubba". And I know the one thing that I miss the most and seeing his sweet face when I came into the back door and him calling his Papa and grabbing his leg, hugging him. Sweet, sweet Noah. And believe me when I say, a Hershey's kiss is not the same without him. He and his Papa would eat "2" every night. That is what he called a kiss..he wanted to have 2 and his Papa to have 2. There has been a bag in the refrigerator since January. Not eaten, sitting in his spot so that he could go and get him and Papa "2". My heart is broken but in reality there is not much that I nor no one else can do. But that does not stop my heart from breaking....I will be okay and it will get better with time or that is what they say but you can't prove it by me.

Take care my friends. And hopefully I will be online again this weekend. Love, peace and happiness.....

4 comments:

¸.•*´)ღ¸.•*´Chris said...

You know, you do have rights to see your grandchildren by law. I don't know the circumstances but this doesn't seem at all right or legal. I hope it can be worked out soon.

I'm sorry to hear about Momma. My mom did the same thing too, calling me at work or calling me at home at weird times of the night. I'm sorry your Daddy is suffering with the COPD. You certainly have enough to have to cope with and my heart goes out to you.

Please keep us updated on things. We are here for you always (((hugs)))

dave said...

Not being able to see your grandkids has to be one of the worst things thinkable. They wiggle so quickly and so deeply into our hearts.
Sorry about Momma.
You have had an intense winter. I hope spring is better.

nancy said...

so sorry to hear about your momma declining. as much as we dread it, it unfortunately happens.

i will say a prayer that noah can soon come and get kisses for himself and his papa.

Lori1955 said...

I'm sorry to hear about your momma. I too remember the constant phone calls before I eventually had to quit my job. These declines are always so hard and so heartbreaking.

I also sorry for the rift that has taken Noah out of your life at this time. I think no matter what the problem, the children should come first. I know that prayer doesn't seem like enough when you go through these tough times but it is really our best hope. Never lose hope.