I wish that I had better news...

It seems like a gray cloud is hanging over my head.
BIL is worse...we were told last week that it just does not look good and that he has 2 weeks to 2 months. Do I believe that? NO! I have faith and hope that God will come and heal him. I just pray that God's will be done.
Momma is not doing well at all. I believe that she is going into another stage. Wednesday was a really really bad. She didn't know me or DH...She didn't know her granddaughter that lived with her most of her childhood. It is breaking my heart. The CNA that comes to Momma's ask me today what I was going to do when she had no memories of me. I told her that "in her mind, she might not remember me but she would remember me in her heart. And that was all that matters. And then we both started crying. Momma looks at us as if she is looking through us not at us. We had dinner with them last night and she would not eat until we got up from the table. We got up from the table and then she eat and fed Droopy. I really don't know what to do from here. She tried to cook Wednesday night. Needless to say, I cleaned up a dozen or so eggs out of the floor and off of her and Droopy. I have a nasty sinus infection and I have had headaches all week. But, I will not leave her.
Today was not any better...She was confused when we were going to the doctors' office and once we got there it was not any better. Medications were changed around..some discontinued..some new ones added... more tests done...She didn't know who's car we where in. I told her that it was my car and she told me "no, you have a bug truck.." I told her "yes, Momma I have a Yukon but I drive the car when we go to the doctors' office." "Oh," she said.
Last week was wonderful. Her mind was so clear. This week it is like a thick fog has rolled in and it will not move on. So, we are just here...making sure that everything is going smoothly for her. I'm afraid that we are going to have to make a decision on what is best for her..
I hope that everyone has a great weekend..please know that I miss you all...
Take care....
Peace, love and happiness

Happy Father's Day Daddy

Daddy,
I wanted to let you know that I love you so much! I am so proud that God give me the honor to be your daughter. There are so many things that I'm thankful for but God above knows that I'm thankful that you are my Daddy. You held me in your arms immediately after I was born. I will never get tired of hearing about the day that we were born. Dale and then me. How we got our names, how you and Momma had your hands full with 2 toddler and then 2 new born babies.
Daddy, there so many things that you have done for me as a child growing into a teenager and then as I entered adulthood, holding my hand along the way! I can remember, you and Mama took a sandwich to work everyday so that your children could have everything that we needed and most of what we wanted. I would meet you for breakfast every morning while I was in college and you would buy me breakfast. You made sure that I had gas and that my oil was changed and that my car would never leave me broken down on the side of the rode. I can remember when I was on campus, and the car wouldn't crank and you went out and bought me a new car. I was so worried about car payments and you told me "not to worry." And I knew that I didn't have too.
You made sure when I was on campus all day long that I had money to go and get some lunch. I never went to your house that you and Mama didn't have something cooked and me a plate in the microwave.
I remember when we were painting the front porch because Mama wanted a "hunter green" porch and you were standing there watching me and telling me.."Gale, you missed a spot..get it before the other paint dries."
I miss our fishing trips on the coast. Fishing for sheephead. I don't eat fish but loved to fish with you and Mama. I miss the trips to the mountains. Camping out and getting up early to cook for everyone else. I miss us doing alot of things but I know that you are just a phone call away when I need you.
I know that you are so proud of all your children..all 6 of us. I can see the twinkle in your eyes when you talk to other people about us. I can also see the hurt in your eyes when you talk about Ricky, your son that has gone on. Your heart just breaks into a million pieces everytime you talk about him! You are so proud of your grandchildren and now your are a great grandfather. And these grand children love you so much! There is nothing like their "PAPA".
I know that I can speak for your other children, we love you Daddy. Thank you for all that you have done for us! We are proud to call you our Daddy!

A quiet home

It is has been a two very long weeks. With the boys and and a 21 month old granddaughter in the home, was nerve racking. Don't get me wrong, I love them dearly but remember, I have not had small kids in my home for many years. I baby sit for my niece and friends on occasion, but they are only here for a few hours and then they are gone. So having 3 kids in the home 24/7 is something different for us.
We took the boys home yesterday. I think the oldest child thought that we were playing a million and one questions. It is so funny because I can remember making this trip with my boys when they were around the same age and all they done was sleep. We would get out the yard and they would be asleep. The youngest child watched a DVD on the drive and didn't say a word all the way until I got off of I-75. And then they were both excited. "Aunt Gale , turn this way or Aunt Gale go that way." And then the oldest boy, reminded me that we were in his "neck of the woods" and I reminded him that I had made this drive so many times that I could make this drive with my eyes closed...lol. I miss them so much.
Skylar (our grand daughter) went home yesterday also. I know that my son and his wife were so happy to see her. She is a sweety but a handful.
I wish that I could say that Momma is doing okay, but she is having some really bad days. There are days that she will be up long enough to eat. She is not eating well either. I just hate to see her like this. I would love to see her eat a good meal. Not just a bite of this or that. She ask me if I would go and buy her some wonton soup, fried rice and an egg roll. I go and get it and she looked at me and ask me why I went and bought all this food. I was so sad that she would not even taste of it. I think that we are going to see more days like this.
I hope that everyone has a great weekend and to all of my blogger friends that are Fathers'..have a wonderful Fathers' Day!!! Peace, love and happiness......

a visit from Skylar

Our 21 month old granddaughter, Skylar has been with us this week. It has been a very interesting week for us. We have my nephews from Atlanta with us also. They are having a great time playing with Skylar. She is keeping them on their toes. They are all so sweet. We are planning on going to see out grandchildren in Thomasville this weekend so that my son and his wife can see Dalen and Spencer. Bryan misses his little cousins. The boys are wanting to meet their cousins also.
Momma has been sick this week but hopefully we have everything under control. My BIL is in the hospital due to a blood transfusion. He is not doing well at all. Hopefully this will help him. He is not eating and he is swelling really bad. Even after taking Lasix. Currently he is not taking Chemo but he is taking radiation treatments. I don't know who much longer that he is going to take these treatments. He is having a rough time with these also. He was to go back to the doctor that is doing his radiation treatments tomorrow. I don't know how is going to have the strength to go after the stay in the hospital.
Take care everyone...and have a great weekend...peace, love and happiness....