Monday, October 15, 2007
okay...what is going on?
Today has been awful. My truck decided that I didn't need the battery anymore so it died. And that took me all morning to take care of. The person that I thought would help me told me that he was busy at work and that I could take care of it myself. Okay, the battery is dead..the truck will not crank...and that means that I can not go anywhere. So I walk 3 1/2 miles to get my my Mustang that he drives. An hour and 15 minutes walk. And when I start to leave when the car is parked the puppy wants to come home with me..then the tears start flowing. And I have cried all day. So Daddy comes to what I thought was my home with a battery for my truck and he gets it fixed. And I thought,"okay that is over with... the day will get better". Stupid me...the dear hubby gets home and tells me in not so many words that I'm a burden. A burden? Okay, now I'm thinking for 9 years I have been a burden? And you decide to tell me today...so when I tell him that I will move out tomrrow he goes to crying telling me that he don't want to leave. I had to break it off and tell him that I didn't have time for this drama I have enough going on in my life without this. I want to scream...LOUD!!!!! Then I realize that will only make my head hurt worse than it is hurting now.....does it ever stop....what is going on?
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I am sorry gale. Just remember I love you greatly.
I'm sorry to hear that you're having some troubles. I can't believe that a man would say something like that to his wife, the woman he loves. I probably shouldn't say too much about that since I know little about your situation. I just know that when I was married, I would never have said such a thing and I would always come running when those calls came in.
Just keep your chin up and do what is right for you. Each of us can be our own hero no matter what others do or don't do. Whatever you choose to do will ultimately lead to the right choice even if it isn't the right choice itself.
If you ever need an anonymous person to talk to who has no stake in your issues, feel free to send me an e-mail. I'm no therapist, but I'm a good listener!
By the way...I just got caught up on your blog, so I left some comments on your previous posts too.
Just dropped by through John's blog! I hope your week gets better! Hang in there! Sometimes things just...well...SUCK and then you take a bubble bath, have a good cry and have a go at it all again!
Would love to have you visit my blog! Bright blessings to you!
Go ahead an SCREAM. Come on LOUDER. SCREAM, SCREAM, SCREAM.
Now go tell hubby that if you are such a burden that he shouldn't be burdened with sleeping with you and he can sleep on the couch. You don't need this.
Oh please believe that he is loving sofa city right now...because he is not sleeping in my bed....
Gale - I read this last night and was hoping that today there would be a new post telling us that you were having a better day today!!
Men - You know, they have a completely different thought process (if they are thinking at all before saying some of the ridiculous things that they say). They have this concept that they need to find solutions for all of our problems and if they can’t, well, it’s the old “it must be you” thing and they are no longer “responsible” to find a solution!
We women, we talk things out. Not so much as we are looking for them to find the answers, just because that’s how we’re made, we talk things out loud and get it out of our head to see if there even IS a solution!
My husband pulls some outrageous ideas and attitudes right out of his butt a lot of times and he makes me a crazy person most of the time. He makes rude (“you’re fat/ stupid/ can’t cook”) comments at the drop of a hat if he’s confused or angry and yes, he’s a jerk a lot too (on top of the a-hole stuff that he’s said). Someone taught him to make matters worse – Like throwing gasoline on a fire – some days I just want to slap him mother for raising him this way! But, maybe he is right. I am chunky (but I was when he met me too and he didn’t have any problem with it then – “Dogs want bones, real men want some meat and potatoes on them”) I must be stupid (I put up with his crap)…And I can’t cook (maybe THAT’S why he’s gained 40 pounds since we’ve been married)…
But ---I love him. And I know that he loves me. There is more good than bad and even though there are times when I really, really just want to choke him, he has been there for me through it all. We have the whole rest of our lives to share. Yesterday may have been a good day (remember and hang on to that). Today blew chunks and it’s hurting. You have to get through it, get past it, and acknowledge that you may not always see eye to eye (we’ve weathered many a storm by simply agreeing that we are not the same person, we are not always going to agree, so we agree to disagree) because there is always Tomorrow…And you CAN make tomorrow a better day!
Just letting you know that you are NOT alone with the hubby’s a jerk thing! He’s probably just as upset with this disease as you are. Since there are NO solutions, it does not get better or go away, he’s scared and in his psyche he’s thinking that he has failed to find an answer to your stress and a fix for this mess. Do you love him? Does he love you? Go give him a squeeze and tell him that you love him even when things go wrong ( I usually say, “Even when you’re being a jerk”) ! Let it pass. Tomorrow is another day. We all have enough unhappiness, why make more?
Take care – Sorry for the long post! I hope that you have a brighter day today!
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